I had popped out for a little walk at lunchtime, hoping to clear my head and catch a few light rays which were threatening to break through the clouds.
In reality I ended up walking with light snow flakes falling on my head, interspersed with a little bit of sun. It was so cold!
I was in the need of a mood booster, a bit of light relief and some fresh air in my lungs, no matter how cold it was.
I had been feeling lousy over the past few days, rubbish at life in general. A feeling which swept over me, making tears spring to my eyes out of the blue. Just another cycle on this rollercoaster that is this pandemic.
I did a couple of loops of the local park, relishing the fact that the recent plummet in temperatures meant that the ground had gone from sludge to firm earth. A little bit more inviting when you don’t have to wade through mud to complete a short walk!
I trudged through leaves which still littered the ground, tried not to slip in the few remaining muddy patches and stopped and watched the odd Robin and Blue tit flutter around the branches of trees.
I came to my favourite copse of trees in the park, mostly large oaks which provide the perfect spot to meander through.
I had a sudden urge to hug one of them!
Being outside, breathing in the fresh air, feeling the ground under my feet, I was suddenly overwhelmed with this feeling of needing to connect to nature. Hugging a tree seemed the perfect way to do this. To feel the bark and know that it is sturdy and safe.
So, did I fling myself at the nearest trunk like it was a long lost friend? No, I didn’t. There were quite a few people around! My self-consciousness stopped me from doing anything more than running my fingers lightly over the bark of one tree as I idled past it.
But I took a moment to enjoy the sensation and of being outside in the very fresh air! It’s obviously a deep seated need, particularly when we are sat in artificial environments, in front of screens for so long, it’s a lovely feeling of resetting the balance somewhat.
It’s the same feeling that I get when I find myself on a beach, the only thing I want to do is walk barefoot on the sand and in the shallows of the sea.
Maybe one day I will hug a tree, but for now I’ll make do with enjoying my walks and the nature that surrounds me.
It always helps to cheer me up, which is very much needed during this latest lockdown!