Hello! Well, it’s been quite a while since I’ve made an appearance on here and focused on my blog! As you may have read in my previous post, I had not been well earlier this year, which meant all my energies were going towards just dealing with the illness (vertigo) and getting better. It’s pretty debilitating when you are in the midst of it and normal life was put on hold for a while.
Then to add into the mix trying to get back work as well just about finished me off!
I spent the best part of summer dealing with this and just trying to get back on track.
Thankfully we had a two week break to Turkey booked in September, which couldn’t have come at a better time! I was feeling much better in terms of the vertigo which I was very grateful for, but I was pretty exhausted, so having some time away where I could just switch off and relax was just what I needed.
When I got home I was starting to feel a bit more like myself, but then I was knocked down by what was essentially a bad cold, not normally a major concern but as I was still a bit under par it hit me quite hard.
Being unwell and struggling to cope at work had hit me mentally too, I was feeling pretty low. It was taking all my energy just to get through the day, so a lot of other activities were falling by the wayside, which included blogging.
The balance has been way out of whack for a while now! I am always looking for that work/life balance sweet spot which has eluded me so far, but these past few months have taken the biscuit!
And then comes the ‘should’ category…
I should…I need to…I must…
These words swirl around in my head, adding to my anxiety that I am just not doing enough. It’s exhausting.
And so to my blog, those words have been bouncing back and forth in my brain for months now in relation to my blog. I should post something, I should at least read some posts, I should sort through my photos, I should try putting some words down…none of which I have really done because I just haven’t felt like I could. And that made me sad. My blog was something that was bringing me great joy, but I just haven’t been able to find the time/space/brain power to focus on it recently and words did not seem to want to come for posts.
Then the other day I was sat in the hairdressers flicking through a magazine as I waiting for my colour to take (yes, I need a little helping hand in the department now!), and I came across a few articles about life balance which hit a nerve.
Reading them got me thinking a lot about how I structure my time, how much I do just for me, why I get so anxious about things, what I can do to improve any of this.
It’s no coincidence that all of this has started to filter to the forefront of my mind as I am starting to feel healthier and stronger and I want to get back to normal activities! I can see the difference between myself now and a few months ago, where I was really struggling to cope with life in general, it’s a big improvement and because my health has improved I am feeling stronger in myself mentally too.
This has inspired me to re-engage with my blog again as my first step, I’ve missed it and it’s time to let the creative side of me out again!
It never fails to amaze me how topsy-turvy life is and it will always surprise/disappoint/disrupt/delight you when you least expect it. There is definitely not a one size fits all solution to any of our problem and issues and we must each find our own ways to navigate them as best we can. And that’s all we can do. ‘Living our best lives’ (oh how I hate that phrase!) isn’t always about achieving, or excelling, or living the insta-perfect life, most of the time it’s just about putting one foot in front of the other and getting through each day (which can feel like a big achievement sometimes!), being kind to yourself and others. Finding things and people along the way that make you happy and proud is to me one of the best ways to ‘live our best lives’!
And on that note, I sign off this rather long-winded and rambling post! I hope that I’ve managed to explain my absence a bit at least.
Now onto more lighthearted and fluffy stuff, I am looking forward to posting again and sharing some of my photos and tales from Turkey with you, so all being well these will follow soon!
Sorry for the absence and thank you so much for sticking with me! x